My Fading Memory | do I have early onset Alsheimer’s

I remember a test I took in high school for algebra, it was on trinomials. The next day when the teacher had graded them, I was called up to the front. The teacher remarked that I hadn’t shown my work. I told him that I did them in my head, where he replied, “I know you can do them in your head, but I still want to see the steps.” So, I wrote down what steps were needed to solve these equations & my big red question mark turned into an A+ 

In 11^th grade I went to Vo-Tech’s electronics class & the last phase was computers & programming. We went to the computer lab, full of Apple II computers, several industrial and servers & one brand new tiny little Macintosh. I was never so excited in my life. The only computer I had ever touched were my Commodore VIC20 & later the 64 & briefly a TRS-80. Except for some assembler/flash to eprom, the language I used was basic, on everything and I was a master of it. I would get my daily program done & turned in and then I would go around the room helping debug other students’ programs. 

I was a brainiac! 

When I was in my late 40’s a kid I worked with asked me if I could help with his algebra, my brain was thinking πR2 2πR, I got this. So, I said yes. 

As I stood there & stared at the equations in his workbook, it was like I was trying to read a foreign language. Nothing looked like my algebra. I asked him if this was some kind of new math or something & he said no. It was the same algebra that was invented in the 9^th century, I just had forgotten it. But it was more than that. I didn’t have the desire to learn it again. All the math & formulas & numbers didn’t seem to interest me anymore. The only programming was with HTML, building my many meaningless websites. I am still building & maintaining my site ‘ChrisCarnes.com’, but now it is more for therapeutic reasons. The more I concentrate on that, the less pain I notice. 

Now, as I approach 60, things seem to be going downhill fast. I am very fuzzy about what is real & what is not. I’m not even sure if the above paragraphs are true. I remember taking an IQ test in college & it showed 135. Was that even true? 

From now on if I don’t have any proof of events in my past happening, I will consider them the stuff of dreams. 

As for my state now, it is getting bad. I am not sure if the is early onset Alsheimer’s or not, but I do not like it. I am losing memories more & more. I don’t even have a picture of my mom in my brain anymore, at least I have her picture on the wall. I just had another scan of some sort; MRI, CT, cat scan, I don’t even know. I wish someone would figure out what is wrong with me, before there is no ‘ME’ left.